Sometimes it is very tempting to live in the past.
Or at least revisit it from time to time.
There is something that can help me to keep living in the present.
I imagine a very, very thick door
such as you would find in an ancient cathedral.
The door is very, very resistant to being opened.
The door handle’s brass is very, very thin and worn.
The door squeaks and shudders on its hinges with a terrible sound.
Once the door is opened, a whirlwind quickly draws you forward.
The door slams behind you with a thud
and you find yourself in an unending ocean
trying to balance on a log.
There is no island or boat near you.
All around you are clear waters that you can look through to the bottom.
There are many views of your past in full sight.
However, you must be careful:
if you try to jump to another log to get a different view,
you find yourself in quagmire that is as terrible
Very quickly you realize that you are in
The Sea of Forgetfulness.
The bad memories are not in sight,
and the good memories give you comfort.
Even the good memories become more faint
as you live in the past.
People from your present cannot see or hear you,
and people from the past are likewise unavailable.
You are living in limbo
until you realize that your present life
is calling to you.
Even the good memories start to fade.
You have made peace with your past
before it completely faded from view.
Your present life is looking better and better.
Ah, the relief!
Why isn’t the past as good as we remember it?
Because the present is a different life now.
I quickly decide to get back to my present!
Just as I need her,
an angel shows up to open the big, thick door
I am back – I am home.
I am on secure footing once again
and quite relieved to see what makes up my life
right here, right now.