THE RESPONSE FROM AN EATING DISORDERED PERSON
Eating Disorder, Ed,
let go of your hooks in me.
Your thinking is strange and perverted
Making me wonder how I ever listened to you.
It was difficult as a child
not to listen to you
since your comfort was there
anytime I needed it.
Much later, sure it was fun
weight lifting and doing cardio
till I was buff and “hot”,
but it was an empty victory.
I had worked on my physical self
and didn’t even know about my insides.
Now I know
there is more to life than physical looks.
It is inner beauty I am aiming for instead.
I am embracing health and good practices
not to reach a deadline or number on the scale,
but to enjoy and last for a lifetime.
I am gathering some of what you stole from me
as my eating disorder program providers
tell me I’m doing great.
Food does not take me to Nirvana,
but it is simply fuel for my body.
You asked me why I’m not on a diet.
I am not into quick fixes,
and the scale is a hideous way to measure success.
That’s how you survive, Ed,
by having people search for quick fixes.
Well, Ed Monster,
I am through with you.
I’m choosing life today,
a physical, emotional, mental way to live well
and a life everlasting.
Go to hell, Ed!